Okay, so I know a lot of you have been wondering, what the hell is Tanya doing now? Where is she now?
It’s no secret that I’ve been constantly on the move the last several months. Graduating college, England, Scotland, back home, to the outer banks, back home, Ireland, and then Chicago TWICE.
Finally I can say to all of you that I’m slowing down for a bit. For those who are wondering, and most have probably guessed, I’m making a big move to Chicago.
I know that I can’t sit around and wait for my heart to repair itself over the still fresh tenderness of missing out on my move to England. So what better place to keep healing than a city that once inspired so much hope in me? I’ve been apartment and job hunting here for the past week, and things are looking relatively well.
I had a job interview last week for a dog walking company, and I’m supposed to start training some point this week. Tomorrow I have an interview at a pretty snazzy restaurant, and I’ve applied for an apartment already.
Now, technically I’m homeless. I’m doing couch surfing, which if you don’t what that is, you can read more about it here: https://www.couchsurfing.com/
So anxiety and all aside, I’m “homeless” in a big city I’ve only been to three times, living with a stranger I met a week ago (who is totally awesome and very sweet to host me), and I only came up here with a truck now officially in my name, some clothes, some shoes, and two potential jobs.
Whew. For some people, this is a nightmare. For me a few years ago, it would have been too. And some people are probably saying, why didn’t you just stay at home and work and save up so you would almost be guaranteed an apartment?
Well pals, that’s the thing. For me, that’s the harder road. Being stuck in a town where no one believes in you. Stuck in a town where a lot of the worst things have happened to you. Stuck in a town where most people don’t get out. I desperately needed to make sure that I got out.
So yes, the common road to travel on would be doing just that, and some would say it’s the easier road. But as my good friend Robert Frost once said, “I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference”.
I’ve only been back in the city officially for a few days, but I have not once yet thought that this might have been the wrong choice. Sure, I’m going to struggle having to live on people’s couches for a while and struggle with the fact that when I DO find a place, I’ll still have virtually nothing and I have no idea when it’ll be that I can return home to get some things that mean a lot to me, my cat of course being included in that.
But I am happy to struggle a little for something big rather than struggle a lot at home for the same thing. I have a strong and amazing support system in my family and friends that are here and the ones back home. YOU all give me strength, and you all make me remember that I am a badass warrior queen, and this struggle will be nothing. It will all be worth it. I can feel that future dancing on my tongue and it tastes so sweet.
That’s all for now. I want you all to know that I believe in all of you and I love all of you. You really can do anything you set your mind to, as long as you have a plan. Even if there are what people think to be “better” plans, only YOU know what it best for you, and no one should ever judge and question that with severity. Know who loves and supports you endlessly, and keep them close in your heart. I love you all.